Today is a happy day. One year ago I met the love of my life, on an ice cream date. How cute, right? We’d been talking for about a week on EHarmony and it was one of the cutest dates I’ve ever been on.
We didn’t actually get together for another two months, but I count this day as a victory. You see, I’ve been waiting for the year mark for quite a while now. I’ve known I’ve loved my boyfriend since month two, when I decided to switch churches and the first person I wanted to tell was him. And ever since then my love has grown exponentially. I think I’ve been waiting for the years to catch up with my feelings.
I’ve been a hopeless romantic all of my life. If you follow this blog some, you’ll notice that so many of the books I review are in the romance category. I’m the same way with music. Except, most of the love songs out there are of the pining variety.
Today is a good day, but it’s a day that I won’t see my love.
It’s times like this that I think of songs like Run by Rex Goudie. I listened to this song so much in high school. I’d equate the sentiments to lovers in books and movies, to a future guy I wasn’t sure even existed. It’s funny now, finding all of this old music that hits very close to home during long stretches of separation.
All of those songs I lived on growing up about aching hearts and overcoming distances prepared me for this time in my life. Gave me the ability to pull strength out of the emptiness. I’m able to find the romantic in a time that’s anything but.
So today is still a good day. Even though I miss him, even though all I really want is a hug right now. Because I am fully capable of holding onto hope… and music.
I was thinking about mix tapes today. Sometimes after I finish a book I like to find songs that match and put them in a playlist; and as I was doing that today for The Love That Split The World, it reminded me of a similar one.
It’s always been through music that I felt connected to the world around me. So it would make sense that when I started seriously dating somebody I would want to share with them the songs that I felt connected the two of us. This is the first mix tape I ever made. It’s still my favorite.
I’m not posting this because I want him back. I really, truly hope he’s happy.
I’m posting this just to say I miss him. Full stop. Because I’m thankful for the two years we had, but I’m also thankful for the years we’ve been apart. I grew so much with him. I’ve grown so much because he let me go. Even when I didn’t have the strength to.
So I’m taking this mix back. I’m making it my story. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
I miss you… thank you.
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Two posts in one day, say what?! This is just a short post to add onto my last one because apparently my life is full of throwbacks.
Anyone remember the band Action Item? They were my favorite in high school. I actually found an old poster when I moved. Anyway, their base player Dan Brozek finally released their music video for The Father The Distance. It’s from 2007! It’s really perfect and it makes me really miss them. But I’m really happy for all of these high school flashbacks. Because that was when I knew most that I was going to be a writer. I really need to get back to that.
I hope you enjoy this video as much as I do.
Sometimes a book speaks to me so much I need to express it. And while I could talk my loved ones ears off about the characters and the love stories and the *feels*, I’ve found that making playlists is just as fun – and slightly safer.
I’ve played with 8tracks and Spotify, so my playlists are kind of all over the place. So I’ve compiled them all for you here for easy access.
Happy reading and listening!
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