Baby Just Run

Today is a happy day. One year ago I met the love of my life, on an ice cream date. How cute, right? We’d been talking for about a week on EHarmony and it was one of the cutest dates I’ve ever been on.

We didn’t actually get together for another two months, but I count this day as a victory. You see, I’ve been waiting for the year mark for quite a while now. I’ve known I’ve loved my boyfriend since month two, when I decided to switch churches and the first person I wanted to tell was him. And ever since then my love has grown exponentially. I think I’ve been waiting for the years to catch up with my feelings.

I’ve been a hopeless romantic all of my life. If you follow this blog some, you’ll notice that so many of the books I review are in the romance category. I’m the same way with music. Except, most of the love songs out there are of the pining variety.

Today is a good day, but it’s a day that I won’t see my love.

It’s times like this that I think of songs like Run by Rex Goudie. I listened to this song so much in high school. I’d equate the sentiments to lovers in books and movies, to a future guy I wasn’t sure even existed. It’s funny now, finding all of this old music that hits very close to home during long stretches of separation.

All of those songs I lived on growing up about aching hearts and overcoming distances prepared me for this time in my life. Gave me the ability to pull strength out of the emptiness. I’m able to find the romantic in a time that’s anything but.

So today is still a good day. Even though I miss him, even though all I really want is a hug right now. Because I am fully capable of holding onto hope… and music.


Little Blessings: Why I’m Thankful to be a Girlfriend During the First Deployment

In general, I’d say military relationships move pretty fast. There are good reasons for that: health benefits, the ability to recieve information, love, of course, and still others.

My boyfriend and I have only known each other for four and a half months, three and a half in which we’ve been officially together. For us, that’s way too fast to get married.

This can sometimes make things difficult. Unless you and your SO prepare in advance (we did not) you don’t get access to email communication with the ombudsman and are unable to attend FRG meetings. It’s for safety reasons and I’m all for that, really. But I’m also the control freak that wants to know where the heck my love is. 

However, I have one thing I get to be thankful for as a girlfriend, especially with this first deployment.

My life is still separate.

We don’t live together, so I’m not struggling to wake up without him, or making too much food for one, or thinking the house is too quiet. I have a roommate, my own space. I have a life that’s always better with him in it, but still good while he’s away.

And that’s not to say that life as a spouse isn’t good without the husband/wife. It’s not to say that military spouses can’t thrive on their own. They most certainly can.

But I think I have it a little easier. And since I know this won’t be his last time underway, I’m glad for this little blessing to help me through the first. Even if I do still miss him every day.